Random thoughts

1. Allergies suck.

2. Almost everyone in my house has jumped on the smartphone bandwagon. My dad, my sister and I all have iPhone 4’s, but I’m not sure if we could convince mom. At least the others have seen the light.

3. My cousin Clay is here to visit for four entire days. He’s a good kid so it should be fun.

4. Did I mention allergies suck? Taking a preemptive strike today and practically nuking my sinuses.

5. What’s better than free books? Thanks Valley Falls library.

6. Looking at the way Herman Cain has handled Godfather’s Pizza and the allegations of sexual harassment makes him a good presidential candidate in my eyes. He’s what the “first black president” should have been.

Commies and Confederates

What’s the deal with teenagers wearing the Che Guevara shirts? How many even know what he stood for or how many people’s deaths he is responsible for? They only like it because it’s “edgy” and “controversial”. 

WTF.

Capitalism brought them those shirts.

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And another thing…Confederate flags.

It’s not “Southern Pride”. It’s un-American and un-patriotic. 

The South lost the war when they could have won. They had better generals, control over most of the agricultural business, and slaves. Not to mention the British would have helped them in a heartbeat. Sorry Rebs, you lost. Get over it. 

Your flag isn’t “heritage” it’s treason. 

Conflicted.

Listening to: Slow Motion by Third Eye Blind

I’ve been out of school for almost a year now, and I’d like to think I can look back on my adolescence with a certain sense of objectivity.

The things I experienced then and the things I experience now are so much different yet at the same time share similarities.

School, work, youth group, first heartbreak (which I would not wish upon my worst enemy), the music I listened to then vs what I do now, just to name a few. 

I’ve done things I never thought I would even 6 months ago. My first two jobs practically fell into my lap and I took that for granted, because now I realize just how hard the job economy is.

What is important to me now is very different than what was important to me four years ago as a freshman in highschool or even just two years ago, or last year. I worried about hangout time with friends, getting to drive, independence, and doing “my own thing” (whatever I thought that was). Now I know that things like good credit, holding down a job, and skills like math and logic are what’s important. 

I wish I could go back and redo high school, the school aspect at least. There is so much I wish I had spent more time on and taken the time to learn. 

I have realized that teenagers are the most fake and fickle beings. The battles I fought with my parents aren’t even relevant anymore. What had set up a road block in my brain to constrict all logical thought and foresight? As much as it hurts to admit, my parents were right on a lot of things, especially money and love. More and more I wish I had listened to them instead of blocking them out. 

This month I was invited to a Plain White T’s concert (which was awesome) and the whole premise behind their latest CD is about all the things a person enjoys as a child such as innocence, lack of responsibilities, and things of that sort. Life is so much easier as a kid. As an new adult, it’s frustrating that to merely live costs SO MUCH. It doesn’t seem fair, yet that’s the way it’s been working for years and years and years.  

So this is me…letting out my frustration.

The world isn’t fair, and I don’t like it. 

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Thoughts In Transit - PM Today

We all grow up and forget
The dreams we had when we were kids
But I don’t think we really forget
We just realize that life is a disappointment
You cannot be whatever you want
Love isn’t real and Christmas is not magical
Like it used to be

Everyone is a machine
Work, eat, sleep, repeat

Dustin Kensrue = lyrical genius

Some time ago about 3 months back I came to the realization that Thrice is my favorite rock band of all time. Ingenious song structure coupled with the best lyrics ever written makes probably one of the most unheard of and underrated bands of the millennium. It is interesting to see how the band has progressed from their first album to their latest. Starting out as a punk band and morphing into an alt/prog rock gem, narrowly escaping without the “emo” moniker. If I were to tell you where to start with Thrice, I would say listen to the Alchemy Index CDs all the way through. And when you finish, listen again. And again. It only gets better. 

http://youtu.be/3mJwqrZ4lNI

Poem.

Winter is a cancer. The trees receive their annual chemo, and the leaves abandon the branches which point to the sky like boney fingers.

Winter is a burial. The snow engulfs the ground in deafening white silence, embalming the soil till the spring.

Winter is a séance. The ice demons invoke their dark magic on car windows and house gutters, the icicles pointing death at the ground.

Winter is inescapable. No outlet, no exit, no safe haven to hide.

Winter is depression.

Winter is sleep.

Winter is suicide.

VoteVoteVoteVoteVote…

The only reason I am not voting today is because I forgot to register. Er, I forgot to complete my registration. It’s not that I don’t love America, I’m just lazy and forgetful. I’m not even sure who I’d vote for. Sure, my church hands out those pamplets saying who’s for what, and who to vote for but….gee, thanks for voting for me. That doesn’t even make it my own vote. I’m voting for whoever printed that sheet, right? Unless I don’t do my own research and form my own opinion, the only reason I am voting is for other people. It is scary that someday Americans might not think for themselves. Sure, we have lots of those sheeple now, but not everyone is as ignorant and moronic as the average American.

I don’t believe in Atheism.

Here’s why:

If you are an Atheist, I assume you believe in evolution. Any scientist who is honest with themselves will admit that evolution is a theory and nothing more. It is impossible for it to become scientific law. For a theory to become scientific law it must be put under rigorous testing including the Scientific Method. This means that in this case the Big Bang must be put in a controled environment where it can be observed and replicated in an experiment multiple times, with multiple variables. This is impossible, rendering the status of Scientific Law unattainable.

Here’s the twist:

The same can be said for Creation.

Christians have faith and are convinced by the evidence that what the Bible says is true and Creation happened. Evolutionists on the other hand, are hoping that somewhere in the earth’s crust there is evidence in the fossil record that says they are right.

We can use this same reasoning for God. We cannot prove God, but we have faith and evidence that He is there. For someone to say, without a shadow of a doubt, that there is no God would make them retarded gravely mistaken. Unless you have been to all corners of the earth and beyond the edges of time and space, you cannot say with absolute certainty that there isn’t a God.

I am by no means saying that you have to believe in a God, but please don’t go around saying you know there isn’t one. I think it would be much more intelligent to say that you are an Agnostic, and just don’t know. You could even say that you don’t know and don’t give a crap, and all the Christians can go to hell. But seriously, don’t rule out God.

1000 Apologies

I haven’t written on  here in quite a while. They only reason I am doing this now is becuase I cannot sleep - too much on my mind. Not necesarrily bad things, but things nonetheless.

I don’t think anyone actually reads this. Those that do, do so because I beg and plead.

So, I suppose this is only for my own sanity.

It is 3:39 AM and I think I am finally starting to wind down.

Any suggestions for summer reading? Let me know please.

Like what

I’m halfway through my second week of summer camp. First week I was a camper, this week I’m staff. Honestly, I really enjoy the freedom that comes with being a staff member. I’m in the band, so all I really have to do is practice music, play twice a day, eat, sleep, and be where I need to be when I need to be there.

But I’m starting to feel the sleep slowly creep up behind me like a bit-rate 80’s horror movie. I need my own bed, SOON. But next week is family vacation and I pray to God that I am not grumpy. I shouldn’t be, since I have a laptop, iPod, iPhone, and headphones to block out my family when they become too much. We are going to a time share somewhere in Missouri. It sits on a lake, and the best part is

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IT HAS WIFI!!!

Shouldn’t be too bad. I am really hoping to go on a cave tour like Fantastic Caverns. All I really want is for it to be a relaxing time to decompress from camps before I head back to work.

Work.

I need a new job. I work in a hot, sweaty, greasy restaurant. We took the temperature in the back by the grill and ovens, and it was over 110 degrees. I don’t know about the rest of you, but that seems like pretty ridiculous working conditions to me. Now that I have a car, I am hoping to get a job at Dillons on the north end of Topeka. I must wrap this up now, since I must practice music for later today here at good old MLCC.